24-8-2009

Have you ever been treated like shit? Oh If you haven't, you should try that, specially when your lover does that to you, you feel depressed, but then you'll get stronger.

Cerith Evans is a son of a bitch!!

He did not answer me when I asked him things I wanted to know, but when I said another thing later, he responded. He said he was not going to delete me but I don't see any reasons to keep me from deleting.

"Cerith loves Lora" that's what he typed on his msn status.

Lora, a fucking cunt who stole my lover. Or probably she doesn't know he belonged to me.

Cerith, the mother fucker who just wanted me to finger myself and then tell him how it feels.

I don't know how my mood is like, maybe I just finished watching Prison Break season 4, so now I want her to pay me back. But of course I can do nothing in where I am. She is so lucky that I don't live near her, or she's going to stay in hospital for a few nights.

I told him I had 2, Marc and him. Now he has another, but the shame is he only loves the other one. What am I? An online friend? That's what you told me but that's not what I expected from your mouth, Cerith. I expected you to soothe me, but you did not, and you did worse than those I've met... probably the worst.

Now I want Dafydd. I don't want Marc because he won't say anything soothe me like Dafydd. I'm not comparing who do I like better, only different ways to get along. Marc and Dafydd are totally different. Dafydd probably will say I'm too stupid, then sweet things come out from his mind, goes to my heart.

If I tell Marc, it'll only break his heart. When he knows I'm angry because I lost my ex lover, he'd feel worse than I am now. So I don't want to let him know. In fact, I'm so annoyed is because I'm not the one who should be hurt. He is a jackass and he's loving the other girl without an apology or explanation. Am I invisible? No, I'm not, and I'm running out of patience. If he doesn't show up again soon, I'll talk to his friend.