13-8-2009

Marc is being unconcerned about me... no, he is never ever concerned about me. If I say that to him, then I'm sure he'll tell me that we can't see each other often because of where we lives, and we have different timing; or he'll tell me that I can't feel anything through the Internet.

Honestly I want to slap on his face. He told everyone in his world about me, even his mother, but he ignore me. Just few minutes ago I saw he left a comment on his friend's facebook which says he's excited because Scott (his friend) is coming over at 7 tonight. He went on facebook and left without a word though we haven't talked for ages!!

The thing I wrote on my facebook last night was "I miss people", then today I got on and saw his comment "I miss you <3". That actually mean nothing really. When you eat the same thing everyday, no matter how good that food is, you get bored of it; or you don't feel it good or anything.

Well, if he loves me, he'd do the same as I did for Kevin which I woke up at 5 am every school day to see him and talk to him. Marc doesn't care about me. I know he said he loved me, but people say "lol" when they aren't laughing so it's no big deal to say "I love you" or "I miss you" without the real heart.

Now I remember a song's lyric, If I Was Your Mother by Bon Jovi, "Tell me what I got to do to make my life mean more to you"...