10-8-2009

Things keep changing, and staying still at the same time.

I saw Dafydd 2 days ago, we talked and had fun. Though I hoped he'd change a bit and we'd be together for longer, something happened as I already knew. We had argument, again. Now I just hope I can see him soon, actually it had been a month since the first fight, I don't want another month.

He came back when I can live independent, then hurt me again, deeply.

Before that, I met Marc's mother, Gwen, who added me on facebook. I was really surprised as she told me her son loves me so much. Marc is not playing, he really loves me. She told me a little secret that Marc used my picture as his computer wallpaper. That cheered me up for a long while. I don't know if I've told u about this because it's like 2 or 3 weeks ago.

I love you Marc <3 (though you can't be seeing this)

I feel like I'm cheating. I probably haven't told you that Cerith asked me to be his online girlfriend an I said yes. (That's before I met Marc's mother)

I fairly told them I cheated. Unexpectedly, they accepted.

Cerith said he loved me but I can't feel it, never ever feel he loved me. All I feel is that I'm a sex buddy of his.

The way that me and Marc get along, is like Platonic Love.



Few days ago when I couldn't sleep, I thought of this song, Insomnia by Craig David.