16-9-2009

I was busy this morning, no, just not only spending it myself. I wake up at 5 every morning but I usually only spend time with myself nowadays, no one really talked to me during these days. Sometimes I tell myself: sleep more, it doesn't matter if you aren't here. But I don't want to miss a thing, maybe someone will need me someday. But it just seems like it's never going to happen.

Today I spoke to Chris, a friend from Germany. Well, he's not a friend anymore, just a stranger. I told him he has changed a lot, I meant it either his appearance and his personalities. He surprised me though, he still remembered me, even remembered my name, which was spelled correctly. He was a blonde, I don't like he changed his hair colour into black. I detest black hair, mostly.

I also talked to a friend, it's always relaxing to talk to him, he doesn't teach me anything but it's relaxing. He was too busy so he stopped using the Internet as he wanted to slow down his life.

And Marc showed up. Wow, what a surprise. To which surprised me more, was we talked like we were really talking. He realized he wasn't always here. Oh you finally noticed, I thought. It sounds mean but I did think that. But I was also happy he noticed that. I didn't really talk to him most of the time, even he was here. It's rare that I have conversation with him, a real conversation. But I ended it soon, not just because I had school, but also, I didn't want it to be too long as it might contain things like those conversations that don't seem like a conversation.

(That's all my Wednesday morning. I wrote it on a paper first and put it here on Friday, I know the date seems kind of weird but that's okay. )