30-7-2009

Already passed 12, another day started again, now feeling a bit tired and sleepy but still want to blog before I sleep.

If you say Marc and I are having a relationship, I'd rather say me and him are web friends. I really don't see him much and I don't have much to talk to him even though he's online. A few days ago I spoke to him and I noticed that he doesn't like his classmates to call him "crying baby" particularly. I asked him the story behind and he told me what happened to him when he was a child. I'm afraid I'm not allowed to write it so I can only tell you it was a sad story.

Some classmates and friends of Marc's added my on facebook and Danile is Marc's best friend, he spends time with me more than Marc does. He's different from Marc, I'm not that enjoy to talk to him, it's like social conversation but I'm sure he thinks I like to talk to him. All I want is Marc, not Danile.

I checked my stalkers on facebook today. The No.1 stalker is Danile, No.2 is Jessica, No.3 is Kate (Marc's classmate), No.4 is Emily (my friend), No.5 is Marc. I was surprised that Danile is the No.1, I was hoping it'd be Marc before I checked. But even Kate, the girl I don't talk to much, views my page more than him!! Ugh!

Marc said he loved me. MARC, PROVE IT IF YOU DO!! I'm tired of his empty words but I don't know what would make him angry and I don't want him to become another Dafydd!! I can't say things to make him soothe me, I remember I did that to Dafydd and then he became another person. I want Marc to be passionate to me and really cares about me. Maybe he's too young that I should not choose.

It's almost 2 a.m. and I'm not sleeping. I don't know what I am doing, probably just wishing people would talk to me, specially Marc, but he's the one who has the least possibility to show up.

"Just let poor Winnie wait and wait."