28-7-2009

Lately, I've read a book about a woman's sex life. A woman who is brave, wise, independent, open-minded, and has her own career. Many men sleep with her and she enjoys it. She wrote about her sex partners, how good they are or how awful they act.

I want to be like her, how she attracts every men and how smooth she is in bed. Even more, she's a famous writer and a columnist. She knows men well, as she admires and adores them when most of the women ignore. Many men want to sleep with her even though she isn't pretty or beautiful, she admits she has a kind of charm that other women lack.

Her sex life is the most adorable thing.

She has everything I look for, fame, men, attraction, knowledge, gift, body...... I want to be like her, I want to be dissolute, I want guys to imagine the night that they make love with me, I want to be known, I want to be attractive.

I'm a virgin, sometimes when I lie on my bed and awake from sleep, I'd think about my first night, where will he kiss me, how deep will he go, how high will we get...... I'm not that picky, I don't mind if he's weak, I just want a face that I like. Touch every skin of my body, passionate kisses, deeper and deeper... How beautiful it is. After I become 16, I'll taste how it feels, and become another woman like her, Muzimei (木子美).