23-7-2009

Hello my blog, it has been a while, how do you do? .........Woops! I forgot you aren't a human, sorry... And yeah, I'm going pretty insane.

I'm still missing Matthew Grindstaff, specially when I want to blog. I want to go back to those days that he talked to me and made me laugh, corrected my English and complimented me at the same time.

These days were pretty normal, maybe you'd see them as boring. Lately I keep repeating the same things --- read, go on the Internet, Tv and maybe movies... and I finished a little work of mine yesterday.

Although I went out with my friends and had good times, I still feel like something or someone is missing.

Now when I go on facebook and MSN, I don't really have anything to talk to anyone. Frenchi, Kevin, Marc...... None of them. If I still being like this, everyone will be gone, too. I feel like I'm getting stranger, I don't want to talk to people and drowning myself into books and stories. I let go of Kevin, Marc and Frenchi, don't care how they have been and be invisible which means they are less important than Matt. Real friends are more important than lovers.

I miss Matt.

Matt, if you are reading this, I want you to know how much do I miss you and you really do mean a lot to me. You were right, when I listened to the conversation we had, it wasn't funny but embarrassing. I still remember what you said to me, you said I would meet other friends and forget about you. But damn! You are my friend, the most honest friend I've had. A serious friendship isn't easy to get, you were far away but I felt like you were close like my "best friends" who spent everyday with me and more than that, you knew what I thought and told me what I needed. Thank you for everything you've taught me. Again, I miss you.