7-5-2009

Yesterday was totally shit.

My English teacher didn't go to school because he was sick, he asked me to take the lesson for him instead. Of course, there was a temporary teacher.

The whole class was insane! I knew if I didn't do what my E.teacher said, he would be upset but I knew I couldn't do it, but obviously, I've already tried.

Some people tried to helped me but there were lots of fuckers. I know all of them, they wanted to play. They attacked me with their words and temporary teacher didn't help instead of join them.

I wasn't the one who wanted them to have the damn lesson, why the hell they yelled at me?!

My voice is loud, very loud, I'm sure I can let the whole class listen to it clearly, very easily.

So I did yell them back. (Of course, not a bad way.)

Everything was out of control, I stood there like a fool, IT WAS NOT MY FAULT!

Anyway, when a half class against you, you would be helpless and embarrassed. Even you say "yea I know how it feels like", but no honey, you don't. No one can image how it was like, even myself, now I feel like it's not that important but if yesterday it was you standing there and taking all those shit, you wouldn't say that.

At last I cried. A girl came to soothe me, it was good to feel someone got my back. Anyway, it was extremely embarrassing. I knew I couldn't do it but why I still carried on? Maybe because my teacher said on phone that "I don't think you don't know what's my lesson about, you know all of it."

So, yea, I fucked up.