29-5-2009

Last post I was talking about my very best friend told me she might leave. I've been upset because of it but anyway, another reason which makes me upset is Kevin isn't around.

Yes, it's because of Kevin again.

If anyone really reading this, I know you would feel bored as I've blogged the same thing for million times, you can leave any moment.

Well, Kevin was here when I wanted to talk but he isn't here, hasn't been around for weeks. I feel like he's disappear for a long time but it's just a week or two. As I said before, he's my drug which I always need.

I wish Jessica wouldn't leave, I wish Kevin is here everyday, I wish things could stay still...

But something has to be changed as I really want to. My final exam is coming soon, I've been working for it which could keep my attention a little more away from sorrow.

Kevin and Jessica are very important but not important as Michael Jackson or as my life dream. I wouldn't let my feelings affect my grade. I don't want to be sorry for myself when I look back my life. I made a vow which I want Michael Jackson to be proud of me. I know it sounds stupid but I really want it to happen. I'll make it via Kevin, Jessica and anything set me up.

Love makes everyone blind. I love Michael Jackson more than anything, I have to remember who he is, I have to fight for him. How could I forget how I loved him? Kevin almost took his place, almost. My heart was all Michael's, now most of it belongs to him. And that little part of my heart goes to Kevin.