19-8-2009

Matthew Grindstaff, the most honest person I've met, who lied to me.

The most honest person lied to me means one thing, which is everyone lies to me.

Am I pathetic? No, at least I know he lied.

After he left I always called and heard the voice massage"I'm not here, so you can leave a massage, goodbye." I hoped I'd hear the same voice says another thing one day, and today, it happened. I thought it was his father, but he said he is Matthew and he came back. And maybe he never left before, just accidentally picked up my phone call...

I feel nothing but to be betrayed.

Probably I should believe one thing that people always say, "The Internet is not real, including friends, love and trust." I think I can't understand it more because I've already seen the picture, felt the lies for a hundred time.

But things always happen to me, is I seldom follow my mind, I walk with my heart, even though it has broken by different people for many times.