22-6-2009

Hello my blog, I'm back. I've been taking my final exams and I've been working very very hard. It still has 2 days until the end but whatever......

It was no need to come because I used study to cover my feelings.... well, most of the feelings.

Anyway, last night I finally had a chance to talk to Kevin. He told me that he has diabetes. It was like I was pulled down from Grand Canyon. I couldn't think right.

He said it comes from his family, his uncle has it too. But the point is, it's diabetes, not flu or headache!

I'm deeply worried. I don't have a mood to study, I just keep thinking about him.

He told me not to worry and he would be fine. But at the same time, he told me he had to do lots of blood tests and how scared he was. He made me scared too. I cried but I didn't tell him. He wouldn't believe I'd cry because of it anyway...

But he made me kind of happy when he does it. It felt like he wanted me to be worried for him.

It's aching to hear he can't have a perfect healthy life. How I hope I can change this fact. I'll nearly do everything for him.

I don't know why I'm worried. He's so far away, why should I be worried!? I won't see him, he's not mine. It's nothing to do with me if he has diabetes or not. But somehow, I'm just worried.