27-4-2009

I was gong pretty awesome today, I was really success about my English presentation, I got 100/100~! I wanna tell Kevin but I can't find him... Hope I can tomorrow morning..

And we changed our Newsletter topic today, it attracts students more. Miss Hannah thinks it's a very hot topic, too. But I'm not gonna tell ya all about this right now.

The thing that I really wanna tell you guys is what happened in the world lately. Everyone knows about the disease from Mexico right? It's gonna visit us soon, no matter where we live. People die in 48 hours if they are affected by it.

It all sounds scary, so terrible... I'm scared, not scared of the death but a meaningless life. I'm scared if my dreams will blow away, my lover will forget me, no one will remember my name.... I know life isn't about short or long, it's about how do you live. I would have nothing to regret if I know what I wanna do or who I love since I was born, I would have a bright life but I found my dreams too late.. If the coming disease really affects the world or the whole hong kong, I'll be dead.

Before that happens, I'm gonna tell Kevin how much do I love him, it's one of the thing that I'll be regret if he doesn't know. I think I don't have a chance to tell people how much Michael Jackson means to me. This is gonna be my biggest regret.

I don't care what do you think about Michael Jackson, I LOVE HIM. Once I was a fucking loser, I didn't know what I lived for or why was I living. After I listened to his song, I felt like he's a bright light in my world. I can't explain, i just love him, no matter how he looks, how people think or how old he is, my love is never gonna change. I can't live without him, he is the first dream in my life, he's the first person who I care so much. Every time I think about him, I know I need to work harder and harder, I wanna do something big someday and let him know me, I just wanna let him know who I am and how much I love him. Maybe an editor or a director? I don't know.

However, if this world is gonna end because of the new disease, these all will be worthless, harmless and forgettable...