Things happened lately

As I told on last post, I have many things to tell.

I wanna start from V-Day. I didn't hang out with anyone that day. I sent a present to Wales a week ago, after he got it he was happy. I love him. But I don't think I'll tell him, he's so far away and honestly, he can have a much better girl to be loved.

I have many friends but friends aren't real. Friends come and go so I don't trust them. I don't call people I trust as friends, they're more than friends, I share many thing to them. Lately, I feel like people are disappearing. I used to have 5 people who I can actually talk to. Suddenly, I don't see them around. I'm not a positive girl, it's easy for me to think that "they are not coming back". If any of you are reading this, I wanna tell you even I don't have much to say to you lately, I still feel glad and save that you're with me.

That he isn't talking to me like past, it's like I bore him. I wake up at 5 every school day for him, I just wanna talk to him. But we don't have anything to talk about lately, and I don't see him much. I miss him, a lot. Hope he won't forget my birthday.I started to need something/someone to excited me, I wanted to do something to full my empty heart.

On Tue, I saw a cute guy on a station, he isn't Chinese. He was wearing uniform and going home. I saw him just 2 seconds and I was interested in him. So on Thu I went to that station at 3:15pm, I waited until 5. And then he showed up. I just wanted to know him, I just wanted to be friends with him. I wasn't scared even we talked face to face. He was surprised, he didn't look at my eyes when he spoke, that made me even braver. I prepared to go, I wrote my msn and my phone number on a small paper. When I gave it to him, he seemed shocked, he didn't think I meant to wait for him. He sends me sms and I send him back. I love this. I do. But the one I love, isn't him, still that one who lives in Wales.....

That's all that I can think of now, I may update more when I remember more.